NEWS........

Have you ever been told something so life changing and you can't tell a soul till the time is right? It just eats you up inside. Well it has happened to me. It will be so life changing and I don't know if I'm ready for it. Time will only tell what will happen. Life throws some hurdles in every direction. Its so hard to jump sometimes and other times its only obvious on what you should do. I was listening to the radio yesterday and a song came on that totally related to what is happening in life right now. It was by Big & Rich titled Holy Water. I was crying so hard! And was so glad that I was not the one driving. Never in my life did I think that a song could relate to me in such a way that I couldn't even control my emotions that came in such a rush. I just hope that we will be ready to deal with such news. Where we can all pull together as a family and set aside our feelings and support one another.

JULY 15

So we have heard a terrible thing for my soon to be family:( it is really hard to talk about so i wont go into detail. But lets just say it would and is the hardest thing a mother could go through. There are minimal ways to make one feel better. There is literally nothing that i can do. It has been an emotional 30hrs i still cant operate to my fullest! it will certainly be a hard week thinking about so many people and how much we love them.

PICTURES

OK so on thursday I went with my soon to be hubby to get our engagment pictures done! They are so freaking cute I cant even take it:) as so I figure out how to post them I will have to put them on here. I hope the rest of you think that same thing?! Well sure love life:) Heather Out

COMPLAIN

OK so I totally cant take it. I thought that some people would be so great about some things when a family member gets married or is dating someone, or anything of the sort. You know, try to support them in everything if at all possible?! Well I have a hard time with it when someone will go out of there way to please one group of people, then not for the other group of people. Why is that do you think?! Yet there are some that I understand how it is to be far away or not really have money but are still willing to go support. I just think one should support anyway they can. Now that I am a bit older I feel like I should support more of my family members:) I mean once this life is over they are really the only thing we can see and take with us. So I need to make my relationships better and stronger while I am here so that I will have the same relationship when this life is over! I love my family and soon to be family too. I know I need to be more patient but its hard. I'm still learning:)

I DID IT!!!

OK so.. ( cheese ) i went to get my first wax! It was not as bad as what I really wanted to believe. I was there with my friend Rachel so it was..... a bit better! ha ha I was still freaking out about how it would feel, the way it was done, and just mainly the pain of the entire experience! But after being there and talking to Rachel, and Jeri ( who is the waxing lady ) somehow I felt less stressed about the entire thing. Mind you I am the biggest baby you might come in contact with ha ha; honestly it was not near as bad as I imagined it to be. I will go back again just to see if I really want to spend that kinda money on WAXING lol but when it comes down to it, I feel like I will do it no matter what?! The first time was totally the hardest. It will get better with every time I go so I shouldn't be to worried! ha ha we shall see.......

OH LANTA.....

OK so i have never had to try and have so much self control before ha ha it is hard news bears:/ i mean when you are with the one you love it is hard to keep a clear head..... but not impossible. this past weekend was a brutal one. all these emotions that are so new to me come flying out at you and you just don't know what to do? or how you got where you are? it is totally blind. not that anything bad has ever happened I'm just saying once I'm married i will never have to deal with the holding everything back emotion ha ha i will be able to be free in every part of life. not that i am not free now but I'm not as free as i will be once i am married. although i feel really stupid for writing this all down for the public eye to see! but sometimes you just have to get it off your chest. otherwise it builds up to the point of explosion! its like BANG!!!!!!! or BOOM!!!!!!
it is totally going to be worth it right??