New

So I decided to get a new blog. One that is just for business use really! I think it will be better that way! But I am keep this one too. I have not set it up yet so there is nothing there. When it is finished I will post again!!!

Am I Weak.... Or NOT?!

There have been many times in my life where I feel as though I am 'Weak' or 'Not worth it' even thinking things like 'Will I ever be proud of Myself?' I am so sick of the voices in my head trying to continually grill these negative thoughts into my head! I know that it is time to put a stop to it and just take a stand and be Proud of who I am! I guess a part of me wants to do the S.L.C Marathon to prove that 'I am worth it' and 'I can do what I set my mind to' and ' I am Beautiful' These phrases are easier to spell out then to say them out loud. I know that is something that must be changed! After all, I have so many things already...

I have a wonderful loving husband who loves me in spite of the things I feel. He is always there and says right thing at the right time and means it! I couldn't ask for anyone better. Then I have my faith. I know that if you put your whole heart and soul into doing whats right and following our father in heaven that everything will somehow turn out right. He is there to catch the tears that fall when something hurtful comes my way. He will always be there and I am so thankful for the gospel in my life!

I will keep going strong with my goal to do the S.L.C Marathon! This is an accomplishment that will not only prove "I CAN" but it will "Silence" the negative thoughts and phrases FOREVER!

But it's for Cancer..... we're still Crazy!!

Come April 16, 2011 Troy and I will be running a 1/2 Marathon! I know it sounds crazy but I believe that we can do it! It is a great goal to work towards and we want to prove to ourselves that we can accomplish something that is hard and takes so much work.... wait isn't that what people say about marriage?! ha ha Anyhow, we are really excited about this! The start time is 7am at the University of Utah and Finishes at the Gateway. Yeah it will be tough but we can do it! It's $45 a person and all the money goes to the Huntsman Cancer Foundation this year. Every year a new charity is picked as the cause of the marathon and this year its for cancer! So whomever would like to join this race for cancer, start training now to build up for this exciting event! Or check out the website www.saltlakecitymarathon.com! Or come cheer that is just as important!! You can also find the marathon checkpoints on the website as well! Let the real Training Begin!! EEK

Long Time NO Blog!

The season is changing and the sun isn't getting so hot and I am loving every minute. There has been so many things happening in life that it is time to start the fall season off right! The last entry that was blogged was the "peace of mind" of being ready to start a family when we were ready. That entry still holds true for us. I do feel like the time is approaching for us to start trying to have a family, but that approach is crawling toward us. Thinking about the responsibility of starting out our little family, I am okay with the crawling speed! Life changes on you fast and it is hard to catch up sometimes. No matter if it was jump started by one decision!

Today is going to be great day though. Despite the hard times that we thought would never end. (Hoping that the hard times have hit a road block of its own) Troy and I are going to get our car from the shop, which I am super excited about! It has been a long couple of weeks for us. First, the NICE car then the Second car. Yes, both times were caused by me.... Go figure! I think things are looking up for us though. Troy was offered to go back to full time and is doing well in school. I have a job that is fun and enjoyable. I just hope that everything keeps looking up for us.

I know so many more things have happened since the last entry. However, because it has been so long without saying much of anything, I come to find myself unable to recall a lot of what has happened! When I said I was going to start the fall season off right, I mean I am going to make a goal to keep blogging twice a week! If my goal was everyday I know I would never do it. So here starts day one of my long time without blogging! :)

Peace of Mind

Prayers are answered in very interesting, random and special ways!


It is hard to think of being selfish as a good thing. i always thought it was a bad thing? I believe that if i talk myself into thinking one thing, I should be hoping and praying for the right things. I find myself doing this on a hormonal basis instead of logic or in a spiritual sense or even per sanity. Never go off your hormones it will only bring you down. I say this in my own words which isn't really easy to understand when they are coming from me! I like to think of the future as it is already reality when in fact it is not reality until it becomes the present. I find myself always in the future of things and never taking the time to live and experience the present. I have wondered why i have been so down in the dumps with not just myself but life! I know that I am happily married and i wouldn't change that for the world! Troy is everything to me! My problem is that i long to be a mother! It is crazy for me to want something that is a HUGE, WONDERFUL, and LIFE CHANGING commitment when I have not been married for all that long. I always thought oh that doesn't matter its selfish to not start having kids when you are as young as Troy and I. We should start having kids now! ha ha who needs to be out of debt when it is so close to being achieved? who needs to have a savings of some kind? who needs to be READY??? Well everyone can answer those questions when they want and how they want because everyone views everything so differently. Well if i didn't have the privilege of having what i thought a pregnancy scare, then i would not be able to answer these burning questions for myself:)
The last three weeks I feel has turned things around for me. It could have been those that I love that I confided in that helped me realize that I was not living in the present time that I live now. They didn't not say the words " Heather stop living in the future and live where you are right now! " But the things that they said with care and love made me think that is what they really meant! ha ha For the past three days I have been living in the present! Now I know that living in the present is all about the future. We can plan for the future and make plans to make our future easier or in a sense better. The present can be just as exciting as the future! The great thing about the present is that later in life it becomes the memories of the past. Why not live it up?! Which leads me to the three burning questions that I have been able to answer for myself.

Debt! It plays such a role in the lives of so many people in the world today! There is maybe one thing that you should go into debt for and that might be a home or even education or I guess hospital bills!? But i don't know much about debt. All I know is that Troy and I have a plan to pay it off in a fast timely manner:) Savings.... really need i say more? A savings is something that we do not have. Why don't we have savings? Well that's easy because what could be a savings is going straight to debt! lol its a vicious cycle:) Being READY now that question is the burning question!

I always thought that being ready didn't matter cause nobody is ever ready! It was your responsibility as a member of the church or rather any women who doesn't have fertility problems should get on the wagon! ha so far from the truth it isn't even funny!! I am reading this book entitled " The Mother in Me " at first I thought that it would make me stay in the state of " I want a baby now and I don't care what has to happen to have one." Surprisingly it was also a key to the way that I feel now. There was a quote in there that said something like this... " Don't you think that our God is a merciful God that will allow you to be ready for motherhood? ( and parenthood) The way this phrase hit me was insane! I never really thought about that. I didn't think that could be possible. Why not be possible though? I'm just crazy I guess?! Now I understand what it might mean. We all come to this earth as not just helpless, fragile, cant fend for yourself beings. Rather, each child that is born is a child of a living Father in Heaven that wants nothing more then for each of his children to be raised to return back to him. In this purpose alone is the mercy of our Father in Heaven. He wants us married couples to grow together as one, to know each other, to be connected spiritually.... to be READY! I know that you can never be ready in the earthly sense for children but I want to believe that if you feel that you are ready in the spiritual sense of things, that if you can prepare yourself in this way that you will be inspired to do the things that will help you be "READY" in the earthly sense as well. The adventure is only going to get better:)

Troy and I will have children. As for when we will have children... we don't know that yet? We both want to go on adventures with each other. We want to " LIVE IT UP " we know now that we are not ready for children. Whats a shocker is, it gives me peace of mind! Everything happens in due time:)

Fun Sunday....

These are a few pictures of Troy and I with Adam and Lilli at Temple Square. It was way fun! We went over on saturday to have movie night, then we slept over. It was a nice weekend. I feel like we all know eachother better and better every time we are together. We really enjoy Adam and Lilli, they are great to be with!

Me and Troy!! We must love this pose ha ha
Troy, me, Lilli, and Adam

He was trying to get me in the water in this one lol

I love looking into his eyes! He is so good looking:)

Adam and Lilli. They are so cute!! Oh and they are expecting:)

The guys! ha ha they are to funny:)

Lost Holiday.....

So the year is coming to a close. Looking back on it all I wonder how I was able to get where am at this very moment?! I love the Holidays! I love most of the smells... as long as you don't have like more then one scent being lit or anything ha ha I love the trees, the food, the laughter, the tears of joy, and so much more!! I just have a hard time with the music ha ha that should be one of the most exciting things right? Well I love to listen to it when it is at least the day after Thanksgiving. I feel as if Thanksgiving is a forgotten holiday! Yes, we get together as family and friends, we talk, eat and laugh just the same. But, we go from having Halloween music to Christmas music. You don't hear in the Christmas music anything about Thanksgiving do you? I don't think so! So how come people say that they are intertwined? I don't think they are... but then again everyone is entitled to an opinion! So you can't get to mad I guess ha ha I just wish that Thanksgiving was a more acknowledged holiday. I can't wait to spend my First big holiday's with my sweet hubby!!!! The fun is just beginning:)